I have this problem. I’m always trying to “fix people” as my friends Sachelle and Tabitha say. I can’t help it that I’m a walking and talking suggestion box. Luckily, I practice what I preach and try to follow my own suggestions.
A few months ago, I realized that I rarely did anything for myself. Most of the things I did were school assignments and sleep. I was working in the hospital one day and a patient asked, “Can I ask you a personal question? What do you do in your free time?” So, I replied, “What’s free time?”
And this is where my life’s conundrum lies. I truly love and enjoy nursing school, but I feel like the days are passing by. There are days when I go without laughing. There are days when I go without hugging someone or telling them I love them. I even had days when I didn’t have to speak to a single human being. It has become my normal that I forget that it isn’t normal.
I know that if I was given only 1 (3,5,or 10-whatever) more year to live, I would not wish I had more time to study. I would do somethings differently. However, I’m counting on at least 60 more years ahead of me, so I’m not going to drop everything in my life and backpack around Europe, Africa, and Asia as I max out my credit cards and student loans to fund my expedition around the world.
I’m making an effort to have a healthy and normal personal life. In doing so, I vow to stop everything once a month to do something that really brings some type of joy, peace, revelation, and meaning to my life. It will be a mixture of being mindful of how, and with who, I spend my time with each day (i.e. visit a friend, eat right, call my mom before she calls me, exercise, or encourage a stranger on the bus) as well as being proactive in doing something special for me.
The blog technically starts January 2014, but I started December 2013. I went and got a full body massage and will be back and the end of the quarter! I hope this inspires you to put yourself first, even if it is only once a month. I also hope it brings other intrinsic value such as, increasing you ability to speak of for yourself, going new places by yourself, and stop going through the motions of life.
Lastly, I take a million pictures and put quotes on them but nobody ever really sees them…. until you get to the bottom of my blog.